Before I get started, here are the newest pics of Ashen. I decided the name Ashton didn't fit. Ashen sounds better.
Mom and I have decided to move out of the dump we've been occupying for the last few months. There are just too many things wrong to fix, and not enough money to do it with. It's also not the same without Dad here. It is 5 acres and too much to maintain without help.
Not everyone is happy about us moving. A sibling of mine has been less than kind to our mother about this, to the point where I have had to calm her because she cried so hard. I don't know if I'll be able to forgive this person for a very long time. Mom was the last person she should have lashed out at.
There have been other issues as well, but I don't really want to elaborate on the drama bullshit.
I knew when my Father died that the job of caring for my Mom was handed to me. I've been with her when she breaks down, and when she needs help making decisions, and just listening when she needs to cry or talk about something. It's hard sometimes, but I'm the only one here living with her, so I have to make sure she has someone there. I make her laugh, sometimes without trying (since she makes fun of me for little idiocies) and we both manage to laugh and cry together.
We just need to do what's right for us at this point in our lives, despite how others might feel about it.
We found a really nice place to rent for a year, and it's in a really nice neighborhood. It's definitely not isolated like where we are. We are currently packing up things, and calling to hook up utilities and whatnot. We should be moved in by this weekend hopefully.
We were out running errands today too, and got some extra things we needed for the new place.
I heard this new song by Staind called "Believe" and it made me cry a little, since it reminded me of something my Dad would say. It sounded like someone saying to believe in the strength of the spirit of a person who's passed on. Just felt like something he would say to us now.
I might think about getting the CD just for that song.
My internet connection should be hooked up by the time we move in, so I'll be able to get back on fairly quick.
As always, thanks for reading.
~Angela
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and my god am so in love wid ur cat
i had one like it when i was a kid, i named her "sily"
waaat?? lol i was 12 for gods sake looool
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And, I hope everything goes by smoothly. You can't make everyone in the world happy, and that's something I had to learn recently as well. If someone's mad at you for doing something you feel is right for you, then, they shouldn't have a right to say anything in the matter to begin with. Sometimes things just don't go the way you want it to, but in the end, there's always good that comes out of every situation, no matter what one's outlook on life may be. Sooo...Again, I hope all goes well :]
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because i havent been active this year i totally missed yous ast journal entries
ow i feel terreble bout this!!
i´m glad you are doing better by now and that you are happy to be moving to another place.. also i think it as awesome that you found your little gray kitty! im pretty sure it is your dads way of letting you know he loves you, and your mom of course!
wow, you must have gone trough such a rough time... do you want to tell me things or talk about it?
I have lost 2 brothers and a dear friend of mine has lost his mother recently so i know you can still have the need to let off some steam every now and then...
i am so sorry hun.. can i do anything to make it up to you?
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I'm so sorry you lost two of your siblings. That had to be very hard, to lose two people you were close to. I also have a friend who lost his mother, a few years back. His father is also passed on, so all he has now is his older brother. He helped me alot just by being someone who could so closely relate to what I'd gone through.
I was thinking about when you asked me what part of the world I'd like to visit first when I decide to travel around, and I wouldn't mind meeting up with you at some point in the future when I get the chance. I have met a few of my online friends, and it really is a great experience to meet people who you've talked to here. It would definitely be great to run into someone familiar in another part of the world.
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Glad things are getting cozy though :3
If possible, I wanna see pics
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"I would rather live my life as if there is a God, and die to find out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't, and die to find out there is."
I know i said i would try to be on more often but well.. art academie turned out to take up much much more time than planned.
i can easely stay painting a project 5 hours straight.. yesterday my mom had to come get me at 1 in the nght to tell me i had to go to bed, i completley lost track of time!
Meanwile the edjucation is great! i love my classes, i love the assignments and the teachers are very nice and my fellow tudens very sweet and cool.
Anyway, so i´m sorry for the late re-ply JET AGAIN. *hits herself repedetly*
Yeah losing two siblings is hard and for my parents it is hard to lose two sons.. but it is always hard to lose someone you love, right? Wow how terrible for your friend that he lost both of his parents? How are he and his brother coping?
I know it must be very nice to have someone that can relate to how you feel and what you have been trough.
How are you and your mom at the moment? And do you till like the new house?
Yeah the Great-Brittain region is great, and seeing you are into art and all that you should deffenatly go check out the great range of musea in europe
Also i am always intruiged by how different cultures can be even if they are just a border away from your own country (take Berlin compared to Utrecht where i come from for instance) or Paris and Madrid... And yeah of course the languages are something i have interrest in to. I would love to learn a lot of languages ^^
And sure, when you ever get to holland i think it is a nice idea of you to meet up, i am a bit shy around strangers but hey i´m sure ill get over it
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