Hey guys, I'm still around. If I don't comment or fav as often as I usually do, I apologize. Things are a little better than the last time I updated.

My Grandmother is doing better, and is slowly getting stronger. My Mother has been staying with her while I live at and take care of the apartment. I visit my Grandmother frequently for family dinners and on weekends.

I'm doing better mentally, since I've been able to do artwork and write in my other projects. I have a few other things going on and that need to be done, too. Hopefully within the next year, I'll be able to move into my own apartment and start life on my own two feet soon. That's the idea anyway.

I updated the layout and some other things on my other site. Feel free to check it out.

My dog had to go to the vet this morning with a bum leg. We got a couple x-rays done, and she's got the start of arthritis in one of her back legs. It's mild, but we still need to keep it in check. She's gotta lose some weight to help relieve the stress on her legs too, so a diet change has been issued. Labs have a tendency to become heavy, so we have to be careful. Poor Bella, she can't have treats for a while now.
I was so afraid that this was something serious like hip displaysia, but she's got really strong hips from what the vet said. I keep thinking of how much she meant to my Dad. They were like two peas in a pod. I know she misses him. I love her so much for the joy and company she brought my Dad, and that she does the same for me. She's got to be the best natured dog I've ever had. She loves people, and most other dogs. We gave her a little Halloween pumpkin basket-thing today as a toy and she carried it up to the apartment. Some of the people standing outside asked if she was trick or treating. ^_^ She would if she could get away with it. ^0^

We've had big dogs ever since I was little, and I don't think I could ever live without one. They appreciate the simplest and most important things in life, they don't ask for much more than love and care, and they give the best good times and memories anyone could ever ask for. Even when I've endured the loss of dogs in the past, something in me cannot live without them by my side.

Well, that's all for now.~Angela

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I apologize for not being more active here in the last few months. There's been a lot of stress on my family and on myself.

My Grandmother had a stroke this week, but she's okay. She just can't move her right arm and leg. She's going to have therapy for that, and the doctors think that she'll regain her mobility.

I have been having spasms all up and down my back from sleeping on a mattress that is sunken in. I slept on the floor in a sleeping bag for a couple of days, and then decided to flip my mattress over. Luckily that side is firmer, but I'll still have to get a new mattress.

I've also been seeing a counselor to help deal with my grief, and it has been helping. Of all the psychologists I've ever seen, this woman genuinely seems to care. She also recommended writing down my feelings in a journal to help release all the pent up emotion that's still inside. There are times when if I just cry, I feel better afterward.

I'm planning on going back to college this spring, and doing a couple other constructive things with my life.

With all the stress of having one thing happen after an other, my mind hasn't been able to get back into the flow of things. I often feel tired for no reason, mainly because I'm mentally tired.

I don't want anyone to worry about me, I'm fine. It just might take some time before things get to normal for me mentally. I'm still lurking around, so don't hesitate to send comments or notes if you want to.
~Angela

I just wanted to post again to say that my Grandfather passed a couple days ago. I believe he is at peace now, and I think I feel at peace with it also. I will never forget the love and care I have received since the very beginning of my life from this man.

Rest in peace, Dario P. Sanchez.

I think my having spoken to him before he passed may have helped him make the transition. He always worries about me, so I told him that I would straighten out my life and do better for myself, and that it was alright for him to let go.
I feel I should keep my end of that bargain, and I'm thinking very much of going back to college. I would like to major in biology and eventually aim to study birds. We both love birds, so I think it would be appropriate if I'm lucky enough to succeed that far.

I am going to try and talk to the local college here and see what they offer, and how I should prepare myself for the field and gain experience.

I will be uploading more art soon shortly, I just haven't been myself in a while in terms of artistic practice. I have a couple of things I'm going to post soon enough though, so don't worry too much.

Talk later. ~Angela

Sorry for my absence and otherwise lack of any deviations here. Things on my end aren't so bright at the moment. As a result, the energy to do anything artistic has been sapped away.

My Grandfather is in the hospital, and things aren't looking very good.
He had a bad infection, and had some complications with it. He may have to go to rehab, but I don't know what will happen that far ahead. My Grandmother can't take care of him as much as she did before, and a couple days ago she was admitted into the hospital as well. She's okay, just very weak. I think it's because of all the stress on her. My Mom and I help her alot, but she is the main caregiver in the situation.

I went to see him yesterday, and he was acting strange. He was saying things like someone who knows they're not going to make it. He hasn't been himself either, and he gets very mixed up at times. He gets frightened and lonely like a little kid. The doctors have said he has a touch of Alzheimer's, but I think his condition may be aggravating it.

I'm just trying to think of the better times with him that I remember when I was a kid. Remembering him as he would want to be remembered. I know it's not over yet, but I'm just trying to get myself ready for it. I just want him to be at peace. He's gone through so much in the last couple of years with dialysis, the stroke, and other issues. He can't walk on his own anymore, and he's alot weaker. He used to be so much more independent, but now he's dependent on so many people.

My Aunt Mary, his sister, came up from Key West to stay here and help for about two weeks. She is the only sibling he has left. Three of his brothers have all passed in the last few years, so he was very grateful to see her again. I wish she could've visited on a better occasion, but it can't be helped.

I don't think any of us knows what will happen day to day, so we're just doing as best we can.

I'm trying to find some things to keep me occupied while at home, but they are few. I still have to go job hunting, but everything's been such a wreck that I haven't had the chance. I'll be okay I guess, I just wish life didn't throw such harsh events at me like this. I just went through losing someone dear to me, and this feels like one right after another. With people who've been with you since you were born, it seems as though they'll be around forever. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about my Dad. I don't doubt it'll be similar with my Grandfather.

I just wanted to let you all know why I haven't been around much. I hope everyone else is doing alright. I'll be okay, I just have to get through one day at a time.

~Angela

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